"I enjoy being around children. I enjoy their enthusiasm I just have a good time with them. Everybody needs people to care for them. Sometimes they don't want it. Sometimes they don't understand what you're trying to do, but they want to be disciplined."
-- Jerry Sandusky in a recently uncovered interview with NBC News from 1987
The interview in question is disturbing for a whole host of reasons, given what we now know about Sandusky. But one of the most unsettling things about it is that as you watch it you find yourself feeling as if it should've been obvious what Sandusky was up to. Of course we're tainted by hindsight now, but there's something off about the way Sandusky appears when talking about his relationship with kids. Maybe it's the frightening condition of his teeth, all lupine incisors which make him look like one of the vampires from 30 Days of Night, but it's much, much more than that. I felt like I had seen his mannerisms before -- and in fact I have. That's because years ago I saw a documentary that stayed with me and likely will for the remainder of my life: It's from 1994 and it's called Chicken Hawk.
For those who haven't seen it, it details with a clinical detachment the men who belong to NAMBLA -- the North American Man-Boy Love Association -- and is often told from their point of view. It obviously was met with a metric ton of controversy and indignation when it first opened, and with good reason. But much to its credit, the picture it paints is something I think every adult should see; yes it's gruesome stuff, unbelievably hard to watch at times, but it's also mesmerizing in the way it pulls back the curtain on the way men who molest children think and rationalize their despicable desires. It shows sickness and evil in the most matter-of-fact manner imaginable.
There's just something about the way Sandusky talked, and I get the feeling that if anyone around him had seen this documentary he or she might've at least been suspicious of his motives.
I'm not going to put it up here, but the movie -- in its entirely, I believe -- is posted on YouTube. Although I promise you'll feel like you need a shower afterward, I can't recommend watching it enough as a fascinating window into the mind and soul of people like Jerry Sandusky.