Friday, January 29, 2010

Listening Post


Later this afternoon, I have to drive Inara to the airport where Jayne will be waiting to pick her up. I likely won't see her again for two months.

I've described in detail before what it's like to suddenly wake up and have my little girl not be there anymore -- how it feels like the light's gone out of the world -- so I'll spare everyone the details about the ways in which it gets more and more excruciating each time.

Here's Pearl Jam's Just Breathe.

8 comments:

Meredith said...

I am so sorry. Hang in.

Jen said...

i'm so sorry, i can't imagine. she's lucky to have you.

Julie said...

Truly heartbreaking. She's so lucky to have you as her father.

Anonymous said...

you know, you posted once that you have another daughter, and every time you post something related to your heartbreak about having to live far away from Inara, I wonder how your other child feels or would feel to see you share your pain about this one child so openly, and say nothing about your pain/sorrow/happiness about your relationship with your other child/children?

I understand that my opinion is based on the stories you choose to post.

Anonymous said...

Let me guess, Anonymous 5:17 is Jayne...

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry you and your wife can't work something out so that Inara can have both of her parents in the same city. I wish you luck with this venture. Hang in there, pal.

Chez said...

It's a bit of a complex story, Anon 5:17, and one I've always chosen to keep private. One of the very few things I do.

Kyle said...

Chez, I'm not sure I could endure what you've got to go through being separated from Inara for months at a time. Hell, due to my job I have to be away from my one-year-old, but never for more than three or four days at a time, and I'm often a wreck at the end of the day because of it.

On top of that, Eddie Vedder is one of the few people who's songs have the ability to make me cry like a baby. Beautiful, if gut-wrenching.

We do what we must for our children. Hang in there. She knows she is loved.