Thursday, February 26, 2009

Block and Blue


You've probably noticed that things have kind of slowed around here lately. The reason for this is two-fold: It's mostly because taking care of Inara during the day has become quite a bit more work since she figured out that she can be mobile. But it's also because, to be very honest, I'm going through one of those "writer's block" periods, where I let what's going on in my personal life affect my output here. It's nothing overly serious; I'm just sort of down these days -- a combination of the depression caused by my still constantly shifting hormones in the wake of the surgery from a couple of years ago and the uncertainty that just about everyone's feeling right now given the state of the economy.

The end result is that, aside from my passion for music, nothing's really moving me these days. A while back, I might've been inclined to mine these feelings for some decent material for this site, and maybe it's a testament to just how crappy I'm feeling right now that I can't seem to. But I'd like to avoid turning this thing into a public therapy session anyway -- so maybe that's for the best.

Either way, for the time being I'm making myself a little quieter than usual. Trust me: I'm sure this won't last and I have no doubt that very soon -- anytime really -- something will inspire me and things will get back to normal around here. Thank you so much for bearing with me and for continuing to visit my little corner of the internet in the meantime. Honestly, the support I've received from readers of Deus Ex Malcontent -- especially the roster of regulars (and you know who you are) -- is appreciated more than you'll ever know.

Thanks for reading.

35 comments:

Dan said...

I fully understand depression being a part of writers block, makes it hard to even want to get started.

Hope things turn around for you soon, maybe some nice weather would help. What's the opposite of a rain dance?

Lily's Mommy said...

hmmmm I'm in a funk because all of my favorite bloggers seem to be in a funk.

As a suggestion, why not ask readers who their other favorite bloggers are so that I, I mean we, get some new ideas, whilst you chase after Inara. BTW baby gates ROCK.

dick_gozinia said...

Filed under "excuses", love it.

Anyway, the new Franz Ferdinand is fucking amazing and you should go check it out if you haven't already. It's a reason to get out of bed, right?

Nancy said...

And it's still FEBRUARY fer cryin' out loud. Thassenough to dull anyone. We'll be here when you emerge.

Anonymous said...

Not sure if I'm a "roster regular", but I visit your site often. Thanks for the info. - it's much appreciated. I enjoy your writing very much and I was beginning to wonder if you were done here. Happy to hear you're not. Hang in there.

Michael J. West said...

Of course you'll be fine. This happens to me all the time, and writing is what I'm expected to do 40 hours a week! Take your time if you can get it. I'll be over here seething with jealousy.

Fred said...

Thinking positively for you, Chez. Looking forward to your "return".

Sirius said...

Sorry you're feeling down - just think about all the laughter you provide to us, your ungrateful audience.

Have you tried drugs?

What, too soon?

sorcha said...

Chez,
You clearly need to watch "The Room" again. No other film, by no other person could possibly invigorate a new spring of inspiration right now. Let the guiding the capabilities of Tommy Wiseau illuminate you from creative darkness.

Chez said...

Oh, Sorcha -- YOU'RE TEARING ME APART!

Bless you.

For the record by the way -- It's not that I'm not going to be posting anything at all for a while, just that I wanted to let everyone know that, kind of like Anon said, I'm not done here. Just need some quick space in the hope of getting myself back a little.

Chris said...

Be well, Chez. As Nancy said, Feb is the worst month for the doldrums. Don't worry, March is around the corner.
Also, you have more time watching Inara be mobile, enjoy!

Anonymous said...

Sorry, Chez. I know it's no comfort to know you are not alone. If there is a god, may he forgive me for wishing when I had minor ovarian surgery last week that it be cancer so I didn't have to kill myself. I know, I know, seeing the shrink Wednesday for a meds adjustment. But I have so many awful problems, and it seems everyone else does, too.

Robo said...

As an O.G. of DXM I'll be here when you return with full Mockery!

nancym said...

You're welcome. Just throw some music videos up here once in a while, with a few cute pics of Inara (if she isn't already moving too quickly to photograph) and we won't bug you.

We can do sun dances for you, if you like. (opposite of a rain dance?)

Honestly, thank you for the most excellent reading material you have provided us with.

The Army Wife said...

As a "multiple times a day" reader ... feel better :) It happens to all of us!

jnez said...

Dude. Start some shit. Throw out an unsubstantiated rumor. Like a running kick to the crinkles...

Hard to stay "on" day after day....

Let it flow. Organic. Natural.

It will gurgle....

Heather said...

If you want, I have some people here you can beat the crap out of. It might make you feel better!

You know where to find me. ;)

A Bowl Of Stupid said...

See, compared to the NYC in February, smoking dick for bootleg DVD's in the jungles of Malaysia don't sound that bad now, do it?

Umm ... oh shit, I guess it does.

Fuck, now I'm depressed.

Tara Parker said...

Hope you get back into the groove soon, Chez. It's nice to know that someone is going through the same thing, if not for the same reasons.

And I'm not a regular poster, but I do read every day.

You've introduced me (at least) to a lot of new music lately, so your mood at least has a positive side. (g)

Bill White said...

Chez,
I get that way sometimes. I just pull myself up by the jock strap and go to another job and think about the fine meatloaf Delores has for me that night--followed by prayer and NASCAR of course :-)

Chez said...

Thanks, Bill. I'll have Jayne whip up a tater-tot casserole tonight and we'll watch rodeo on the Deuce.

Followed of course by sex that includes hitting each other in the face with the Bible.

Seriously -- you rule in every possible way, Bill.

celery said...

yeah, the very things that make us writers can also fuck up our writing. and most things that snap me out of a mood funk (sctv, dogs, led zeppelin) don't exactly send me back into a serious writing mode.

you're the real deal and i look forward to reading whatever comes out of this time in your life.

Mr. Controversy said...

Hope you feel better soon, my good man. I know how you feel, because quite a couple times myself I've felt the same way. (With the writer's block and glumness, not the bible sex. If anything, I'd use dictionaries...at least you're getting some actual knowledge out of the deal.)

Bill White said...

Chez, I love you man -- and not in "that way." If it was "that way," I would get fixed. If you were "that way," I would storm Battery Park, find you and fix you.

God Bless, BW

Chez said...

To get to me from Battery Park, you'd have to go through Chelsea -- and I'm not sure you'd survive that, man.

Riles said...

I guess I'll just have to read your book in the meantime. Bought it when you first put it out and just now got the chance to get into it. And, it's awesome.

Have a great weekend. Be sure to put up a cartoon...me and my son watch those in the mornings.

dick_gozinia said...

Times like these call for sage life advice from Gweneth Paltrow. Wait...what?

Deacon Blue said...

Man, if you manage to average one post a day once Inara is fully mobile (and until she hits 3 or 4 years old), you'll already be beating the odds.

Hang in there man.

Oh, and if you're gonna be dealing in the rough trade with Jayne using Bibles, for God's sake, man, use a big, leather-bound King James version with the study notes. I don't want to hear about you using some whimpy little Good News Bible or something...

Tania said...

Take all the space you need, Chez.
We'll be here waiting for you to feel yourself again.

Wait - that came out wrong....

Web Dunce said...

Chez,
You are my blogging hero, and frankly, I've wondered at the sheer inexhaustible output you've entertained me with for these many months. After laughing my ass off at some snarky comment you invariably hit me with each morning I can't help but feel a bit envious of your talent. But that envy has too often manifested itself into a metaphorical kick in the butt for me to stop procrastinating and start producing. Unlike you, I've got writer's block about 80% of the time. Take heart that after this past year of crazy, now is a good time to sit back and relax for a few. Personally, I'm not nearly as pissed off as I was before the election. Now that the Republicans have proven themselves to be a coalition of assclowns my rage has subsided into boredom, and hence has caused a lull in my inspiration to expound. Perhaps you are going through something similar. Just enjoy that gorgeous baby and equally gorgeous wife and take it all in for a while. It doesn't get any better than that - trust me. Meanwhile, I still remain your ever loyal and humble reader.

namron said...

Chez, think of Vonnegut. His stuff was ever more weird (and great)with each work up to "Slaughterhouse Five." With Slaughterhouse, he wretched up everything he ever ate, and the result was spectacular! Then, the work after Slaughterhouse became less frenetic but more polished. Maybe "Dead Star" is your Slaughterhouse and the mature, nuanced, and--perhaps--classic stuff is yet to come.

Or, you could always write Billy Mays' stuff for those infomercials. It will get Inara through college.

Chez said...

Web Dunce -- thank you so, so much. Man, I don't even know how to respond to that. Best to just tell you that it's really appreciated.

britta is an asshole said...

can i just cut and paste what 'web dunce' said above? my sentiments exactly.
i will share music now (my favorite form of therapy), since everything of import has already been expressed above.

first link is their new video and the second (if it turns out that you like it and want to know more) is their epk, featuring the best producer/mixer EVER!
let me know what you think, if you have the time to respond.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3NZj3QzV0I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDx8TUrFLJs

chin up, buddy.
sincerely,
~b

kanye said...
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kanye said...

Sorry about the preach, man. Turns out that commenting + Oban = bad idea.